1. My Sexual Odyssey Part 1 How I Got Started


    Date: 11/19/2017, Categories: First Time, Gay, Trans, Author: LeicaCD, Source: xHamster

    here is the first in a series of stories that will cover my sexual experiences in chronological order: I was always extremely sensuous, expressed in the love of the feel of satin and silk, as well as the feel of going barefoot, which was nearly impossible in the city, even indoors, not part of the culture. Where I live now it is, and so I go not only barefoot but also nude when at home. I don’t know if this is significant or not. However, the first time I noticed anything unusual was probably when I saw a film on TV in which a boy masqueraded as a girl for some reason or other. I recall how this gave me a peculiar feeling or sensation, coupled with a certain ambivalent desire to have that experience. When I read Mark Twain’s Huckleberry Finn, in which the protagonist did precisely the same thing at some point, and again, I experienced the mixture of curiosity, with a sense of strangeness in reaction. I chanced upon two magazines which, in addition to some suggestive heterosexual stories, was included a photo layout showing two nude men in a barn, lying in hay or straw, not doing anything much, but I recall envying the sensuality of the situation, while not feeling any attraction for the men. At around age sixteen, I was eager to see pictures or images of any sort of nude or semi-nude women. I had no older b*****r with men’s magazines, nor any s****rs to see in states of undress. I had to content myself with advertisements for women’s undergarments and sl**pwear that ...
    appeared at the ends of magazines. As these were of the “Victoria’s Secret” variety, they were sheer, and/or peek-a-boo in style, which pleased me greatly. However, I recall very much envying, again, the sensuality of the lingerie, and the fact that women could look and feel sexy, whereas there appeared no such option for men. Among the baby doll and other outfits were ads for harem pajamas, with the see through pants hugging the hips of the models. I decided to imitate that, in order to experience the sensuousness of the clothing, so I pushed the bottoms of my pajamas down in a similar manner, and rolled up the legs a little. I really didn’t wish to dress as a woman, just feel sexy like one. The ramifications of all this failed to dawn upon me at that time. This, coupled with the habit of removing my pajama bottoms in bed to experience the sensation of nudity, continued for a number of years. I suspect the need for these tactics was exacerbated by the absence of female companionship; my adolescence was a lonely and sexless one. Curiously, two practices emerged, more or less simultaneously: anal self-stimulation, and masturbation ending in ejaculation into my mouth. These practices were infrequent, and attended with feelings of self-revulsion. Nonetheless, I felt driven to do these. This I interpreted at the time as owing to a superabundance of unsatisfied sexual desire. Still, I fantasized about women, and was attracted solely to their bodies. I did eventually have sex with women, ...
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