Date: 8/6/2018, Categories: BDSM, Fetish, Trans, Author: LaArana, Source: xHamster
I've felt compelled to express more of my feelings and experiences I've been having while in my current relationship. I'm certain that whats happening with me now is having an effect on me mentally and emotionally. Slowly but surely my mind has started to come to terms with the reality I find myself in, as a totally dependent bitch-toy. My feelings on this matter are all over the map; some nights I cry myself to sl**p overcome with fear and anxiety lamenting the situation I find myself in. There are other times when I feel a sense of security knowing that my choices aren't my own, rather they're made for me, in all honesty its for the best. I suppose a bit of backstory is called for… I've always been naturally submissive. Growing up and even now, I find myself looking to please people and defer to others cause I've always found making decisions for myself difficult and scary. In most every relationship I've found myself in I've been the bottom, serving someone superior to me, a total omega. Adding to all this my conflicted sexuality in feeling feminine yet trapped in a horrid male body. I've always seen fit to stay in shape as I've figured if I must make do with this male exterior I might as well treat it well and make it over how I see fit. My attraction to femininity lead me to cross dressing early on in life which like my submissive nature has continued to grow and develop over the years. My daddy (boyfriend) has a great deal of control over me, he is able to dominate me ...