1. New Terms


    Date: 8/6/2018, Categories: BDSM, Fetish, Trans, Author: LaArana, Source: xHamster

    I've felt compelled to express more of my feelings and experiences I've been having while in my current relationship. I'm certain that whats happening with me now is having an effect on me mentally and emotionally. Slowly but surely my mind has started to come to terms with the reality I find myself in, as a totally dependent bitch-toy. My feelings on this matter are all over the map; some nights I cry myself to sl**p overcome with fear and anxiety lamenting the situation I find myself in. There are other times when I feel a sense of security knowing that my choices aren't my own, rather they're made for me, in all honesty its for the best. I suppose a bit of backstory is called for… I've always been naturally submissive. Growing up and even now, I find myself looking to please people and defer to others cause I've always found making decisions for myself difficult and scary. In most every relationship I've found myself in I've been the bottom, serving someone superior to me, a total omega. Adding to all this my conflicted sexuality in feeling feminine yet trapped in a horrid male body. I've always seen fit to stay in shape as I've figured if I must make do with this male exterior I might as well treat it well and make it over how I see fit. My attraction to femininity lead me to cross dressing early on in life which like my submissive nature has continued to grow and develop over the years. My daddy (boyfriend) has a great deal of control over me, he is able to dominate me ...
    and keep me in my place as his submissive girly plaything through a variety methods. He is a total Alpha male. It didn't take much to &#034break&#034 me I'm told because I'm a &#034natural slut&#034 and knew my place already. With as often as I'd have sex on my mind and get horny I agreed with that assessment - of course since being introduced to chastity many of those thoughts have been quickly drowned and snuffed completely. I know my sexual boundaries; my daddy controls my sex and he dictates the limits and terms. Kept well and truly as his slave, wait before you think that sounds glamorous, its a hard life and true pleasure only comes at the discretion of others, namely Daddy. Number one term that was explained to me is; To be denied orgasm for periods of time then teased to the point of ejaculation. Daddy knows my orgastic rhythms well, listening to my moans and pleas during these sorts of sessions he quickly learned when I was near climax then would stop. Again and again; sometimes given pleasure and release - other times overdosed on pleasure and held in frustration when release is negated. There would be times before Daddy tucked me in for the night that I would begin to cry. He will usually sit there holding and comforting me while I try to come to terms with this new lifestyle that has been f***ed upon me. Other nights Daddy might decided he's tired of hearing me whimper and whine so I'll be hooded and gagged for bed; kept in darkness, silence, and locked up. Being ...
«12»